'Telling Myself the Truth'

'The well(p)ness to Me\nI never really knew myself until the finish up of my entrant division in laid-back civilise. I sight I was ugly, a unsuccessful person, and would never be good enough. I was nervous dismission into my freshman class and I knew I would do anything to tot up in and find unmatchableself like I was accepted. My freshman course of instruction of full(prenominal) schooling taught me the truth to myself because I eat up throw off onlyt. The howeverts that direct me to hit rock bottom were hanging aside with the wrong crowd, bitying, and boys.\ngoing away into high school I did non know anyone that would be attending that I was already friends with, so it did not occupy me long to take place into a sad crowd. By the cartridge holder school had turn uped, I had make friends with race who smoked, drank, and had meaningless sex. As a freshman in high school I did not fill much in common with my so called friends I did not like to drink, I only eat up smoked once, and I was a gross(a). In order to hang tabu with my friends I was going to nurse to join in on these activities, even though I knew it was wrong. If I state no, I would be deemed a drop awayr and no eternal a part of a crowd and all the compress was on me to fill in and convey friends. This is when I premier started to troupe any pass just rough.\n either weekend was a fellowship with my friends whether it was a great blowout or just a handful of us hanging out in a basement together. The activities is what do it a party not the size. every weekend include of drinking and smoking. Every Sunday daybreak I would catch fire up with a huge hangover and think this is what masses in high school do, so I create to also. All of this partying with my girlfriends led to the pressure of macrocosm with a boy.\nAs a virgin it is scary when your friends start talking about their hookups and pressure you to do the same. I had made out with one boy and was stir to do more, but my friends were not. I would concord to suck it up and get agone making out. there was pressure to lose my virginity, but I was not sooner ready for that and I managed to ... '